13. All of His Ways Are Perfect
"Father, all things You have ever taken me through are perfect. All Your ways regarding me are perfect beyond measure. Not one thing in my life should have been different, neither more nor less, but precisely everything I have ever needed You brought my way in such a way that it could not possibly have been better. Oh God, You are holy, in all Your ways concerning me, You are perfect. I have not missed nor lost one thing You intended for me."
13. All of His Ways Are Perfect
It is most important to stop and see ourselves in Jesus and Jesus in us when we are feeling our worst. When we are blessed and happy and filled with love for God and man, it is easy to rejoice in a personal intimate relationship with Jesus. But when we feel rebellious and sinful, proud and antagonistic, when people anger and frustrate us, when God feels far away and we fell empty and alone, then, and always, is the most important time for us to reject what we feel and to see our self as being utterly in all of our weakness inside of Jesus, and to see Jesus in all that He is, filling all of us as we are right now.
Medical experts are beginning to reckon with the possibility that because worms have lived inside the human body for so long, the human DNA has adapted a need for the presence of those worms. The human body seems more able to deal with some modern diseases when the worms are present.
BBC News gives the following report:
Professor Graham Rook, an expert of medical microbiology at University College London, said: “What we think is that the immune system has become dependent on signals from certain organisms.”
He said a fascinating recent study had illustrated this.
Bacteria were introduced to a group of amoebae. The amoebae did not like the bacteria and tried to kill them - but could not. And five years later neither organism could live without the other.
The amoebae had deleted certain genes in their own immune systems and the bacteria had done the same so they could coexist peacefully.
As a result, the amoebae no longer had a complete genome unless the bacteria were present.
Professor Rook said: “It now looks more and more likely that the development of our regulatory immune system depends on molecules that are encoded not in the genome of the human but in the genome of some other organism we lived with throughout history.”
In a similar way, the separated human soul has lived with demon spirits for so long, gaining its identity from its relationship with those spirits, that it has gained a “need” for the demons in its own identity. As believers in Jesus, living in a separated world, we are yet subject to the deceiving thoughts of demons and view the world through their eyes much more than we suppose.
Let me make this more specific. The need to accuse and to be accused, to control and to be controlled, to discourage and to be discouraged, is so much a part of our identity that it seems, almost, that we cannot live without these things.
Our spiritual “DNA” is rebuilt primarily in our minds by how we see ourselves, by how we see Jesus, and by how we see our relationship with Him. It is in those times and places where accusing ourselves or accusing others is so familiar and almost needful to us that we must deliberately replace that accusation with the acknowledgement and the certainty of our union with Jesus in our own minds in spite of how we feel.
The great battle of this end of the age is the casting down of the accuser.
Since beginning this series of letters, I have sustained the most constant and overwhelming barrage of accusation against myself in my own mind and heart in a lifetime of oh so familiar accusation. Seeing myself in Jesus and Jesus in all of me feels so desperately like heresy, almost like blasphemy, yet I know that I have found that precious relationship with Jesus that I have longed for all my life. I know that this is what God says in the gospel. I know that God calls those things that be not as though they are. I know that we are right now in the transition moment between two ages. I know that the ages are turning on this point.
And so I stand. Especially when I feel most like weeping, like saying, “Oh God, please forgive me for being such a miserable wretch,” then, I must take myself in hand and look, almost forcibly if you will, at me in Jesus and Jesus in me.
Jesus is my life; I have no other life. I am no longer afraid of God.
All of my Christian life I believed that God required something of me, and I have known most certainly that I could never produce it. With God’s help, I could produce what I believed He required for two, maybe three days, then it would all collapse into “reality.” A dishonest Christian might say, “With God’s help, I can do it.” But I always knew that, no, I could never produce what I believed God required, even with His help. Yet, with all my heart, I loved God and wanted to be with Jesus as He stands in His glory, triumphing over all of His enemies.
I am no longer afraid of God; I am not separated from Him in any way.
And we have known and believed the love God has for us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him. Love has been perfected among us in this: that we may have boldness in the day of judgment; because as He is, so are we in this world. There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear . . . 1 John 4:16-18
“As He is, so are we” stands in the midst of the day of judgment. It is there that we stand in absolute boldness. I, as I am right now, am He, as He is right now.
And because I am no longer afraid of God, I am perfectly willing to say to Him, “Father, make me willing to do Your will, as You say that You do.” And I am confident that His will is expressed in my heart, and I am perfectly willing for Him to change me utterly, as He sees fit.
But I give nothing to the requirements of obligation. All that God wills must come out of who I am, for I am as He is. I do not seek His will; I am His will.
I more fully understand the critical importance to us right now to change the way we think. We must see ourselves, our circumstances, and other people through God’s eyes.
I pray that God would include you fully in the awesome and wondrous thing He is doing in our lives right now.
I have been reading the “Annie” visions, again. But now, as I read them, they are no longer a description of something to long for, but a confirmation of what God is doing in me right now.
This is the time of fulfillment. The appearing of Jesus is now. What is happening in our lives is momentous and definite.
In reading the Annie visions, it is possible to come under a sense of condemnation, “Oh, dear God, have I prevented in some way Your doing what You would in my life?” It would be a mistake to yield to that temptation. Wednesday night, I was awake before the Lord for some hours, battling in the Spirit for a position in Him – He in I and I in Him – a place of knowing and seeing. Further bonds of not seeing all things through God were broken. Then, Thursday morning was chapel at school.
Before going to school that morning, for some reason, I had thought that if I could share one thing with my seventeen-year-old son to send him on into life, it would be this: “Always, always, son, justify God in whatever happens in your life. No matter what comes at you, justify God. He orders all and He is always perfect in His doings. No matter how hurt or confused you might be, how much a success or failure, do not blame anyone, but find God right.”
During the praise, I entered into the Lord’s presence. Three things came together for me: the Annie visions – that God is doing something incredibly awesome in and through His sons upon this earth, and we can embrace or refuse every thing He sends. If we embrace it, we receive all the life and power that God intended, if we do not, it passes for this time. Second, the thought: justify God in all things. Third, my life of seeking God through His people in community, in the wilderness, through loss, through glory, through years of Holy Place and Holy of Holies teaching and anointing, through great failure and pain and crushing loss, through God taking me all apart and putting me back together again.
In that moment, I justified God as I never have before. “Father, all things You have ever taken me through are perfect. All Your ways regarding me are perfect beyond measure. Not one thing in my life should have been different, neither more nor less, but precisely everything I have ever needed You brought my way in such a way that it could not possibly have been better. Oh God, You are holy, in all Your ways concerning me, You are perfect. I have not missed nor lost one thing You intended for me.”
In that moment I knew the holiness of God as I have never known. At the same time, I felt that I had taken an irreversible step forward into the fulfillment of all God has spoken, into the parousia of our Lord.
Then, the understanding of what was happening in my experience came to me from years of sitting under a word from the throne of God. For me, in God’s dealing with me, this was the final fruit of the altar of incense before the veil. It is the ascension of that incense by which we enter forever into the Holy of Holies.
Do not think that I imagine myself to be something I am not. I am a simple-hearted and often frightened man. But inside of that human shell, I fiercely believe in Jesus. And all things that He speaks, He fulfills in me.
I am a human vessel, in all the messiness of my human person. But I am filled on the inside with all the fullness of God, and I am encased on the outside with the nature and power of God. God’s throne is my covering; I am the fulfillment of the Ark of the Covenant. What I might see with my natural eyes makes no difference whatsoever. I stand utterly in faith in what God speaks, and I call those things that be not as though they are.
Before I was conceived in my mother’s womb, God had already glorified me in all the glory of Jesus. Then having already glorified me in Jesus, God made me subject to vanity, He placed me under Adam’s sin, and He created me human and weak. This is the perfection of God. It is here that God triumphs, here in all of my weakness that the power of Christ is perfected in me. Never again will I see any part of my life or my history except through the incredible wonder of this thing God has done. The perfection and triumph that God seeks cannot be found in heaven. It can be found only in the revelation of Jesus in our mortal flesh.
We must engage with God to change how we see so that we see all things out from the position of the Ark of the Covenant – as a human vessel, filled on the inside with God, covered on the outside with God, not as a future hope, but as a present reality, and with the throne of His mercy as our covering. From that place, in the Holiest of All, we see all things. We are no longer going towards the Holiest, we are moving out from the Holiest.
Our heart is the throne of His mercy.
I am the Ark of the Covenant, but my heart is the Mercy Seat.
The truth is, that is who we have always been, we just could not see it because God had not yet opened our eyes. There is a season for everything. But now is the time of His appearing, our eyes are opened to see Jesus as He is. Seize upon the seeing that you must have. Timidness is not an option right now. Any thought of unworthiness or littleness or “maybe-maybe” must be ruthlessly cast down.
We are not making something up. We stand utterly on what God speaks in the New Covenant. Christ is my life, I have no other life. I am filled with all the fullness of God. Rivers of living water flow out of me. I cast down all things that oppose or limit God, all things that suggest, “Maybe in heaven, God, but not here, not now, not in me.”
It is here, it is now, it is in me. All things that God has spoken into this earth are fulfilled in me. Corruptible must put on incorruptible; mortality must put on immortality in this age and on this earth. Nothing is more certain or real.
What does it mean to see all things out from the Holy of Holies, never again leaving that Holiest Place? I don’t have a clue; I’m just beginning to learn. But from here on, I will contend with God until I see as He sees. To the one who questions, “Is this really the time,” my answer is simple. If I die, I will die in faith, believing God for the fulfillment in me right here right now of all that He speaks, and if I live, I will continue to call those things that be not as though they are.
There is nothing else that interests me.
And the Jesus who fills me says to you, “Seize the time. Today is the day of My appearing.”